don't hate me but if you must i don't blame you

I am feeling wather sad. =(

I've lost the drive to do anything, whether it be homework, reading, watching television shows or compulsively cutting my own hair. I am so tired but I don't want to sleep. Maybe this is insomnia's redheaded cousin. (Nothing against redheads)

There is so much to do, yet I do nothing. This doesn't make me stressed, or scared. Just really sad. And maybe disappointed aswell. I start having weird thoughts.

I was thinking just before about being swallowed whole by something with a very large mouth (ie. a blue whale - yes, I know they generally only eat plankton and have no teeth). I was imagining how long I could survive lodged in something's giant esophagus. Would it be me to suffocate and be squeezed to death first, or would the 'thing' choke and gag and die before I do? To stay true to my pessimistic disposition, I'll be realistic and say the scenario is probably biologically impossible anyway. This is not a very fun answer to my own question...

I posted a silly video on Youtube last night. I am a silly person.

=)

Why is there such a dichotomy between happy and sad? I don't want highs and lows, I'd rather just be apathetic forever. We should all wear our face like this:

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